I've discovered something about myself, in the past few years or so. I've discovered that the most incredible, intimate times I've had with God have been doing mundane things. Often I draw closer to God through doing the dishes than corporate prayer times at church or school. Often I have a deeper appreciation for what God has done for me by walking to the safeway across the street, than...you get the idea. I just had one of those moments.

I realized I had no fruit, so I decided to go to the grocery store to buy some banannas, and ice cream. As I walked back, I began to have a deep appreciation for everything God has provided me with. At that moment, I began to smell cigarette smoke, which is fatal for me, as I am strongly allergic to it. So I held my breath and walked faster, as I usually do. A minute later, I was still incredibly grateful for how God has provided for me above and beyond what anyone should deserve.

Occassionally I've thought about pastors in other countries, or people in churches I have been to, who have told me that they long to go to school to study the Word. I think of people, who their deepest desire and passion is to study and know scripture better so that they can minister better to their congregations.

I have what they don't. In addition to that, though I have amassed a small fortune in student loans, I have every single need provided for. I have more than many, many people have, even besides the opportunity to study God's word full time for the past three years.

As I'm sitting here late at night, I hear the words to the song "How deep the fathers love for us" in my mind:

it was our sin that held him there
that we should be his children
that he should give his only son
how vast beyond all measure

1 Comment

1. Anonymous on August 10, 2008 at 3:25 PM

   I'm glad to hear that God is teaching you His provision and the depths of His love for you Dr. Studlius Maximus :)