I realized I had no fruit, so I decided to go to the grocery store to buy some banannas, and ice cream. As I walked back, I began to have a deep appreciation for everything God has provided me with. At that moment, I began to smell cigarette smoke, which is fatal for me, as I am strongly allergic to it. So I held my breath and walked faster, as I usually do. A minute later, I was still incredibly grateful for how God has provided for me above and beyond what anyone should deserve.
Occassionally I've thought about pastors in other countries, or people in churches I have been to, who have told me that they long to go to school to study the Word. I think of people, who their deepest desire and passion is to study and know scripture better so that they can minister better to their congregations.
I have what they don't. In addition to that, though I have amassed a small fortune in student loans, I have every single need provided for. I have more than many, many people have, even besides the opportunity to study God's word full time for the past three years.
As I'm sitting here late at night, I hear the words to the song "How deep the fathers love for us" in my mind:
it was our sin that held him there
that we should be his children
that he should give his only son
how vast beyond all measure
I'm glad to hear that God is teaching you His provision and the depths of His love for you Dr. Studlius Maximus :)