...my own worship is half-hearted. I need to repent.
I think of the first sermon I preached on. In the very midst of reading the passage in front of the congregation the word of God spoke so powerfully, even more powerful than I had even imagined, so bluntly pointing out sins in our lives, and that God loves us and because he loves us he rebukes and disciplines us.
I wonder why God has such a calling on my life. What did I ever do? All i have done is turned away from God and toward sin. I dont necessarily like sin all that much, but I seem stuck, and part of me refuses to turn back to GOd and give him control of every single aspect of my life.
